Our foster baby’s parents had court this week, and I’m no longer feeling good about our chances to adopt.
I’m having a hard time getting any answers from the social workers (which is SO FRUSTRATING), but it seems like the mom definitely has a newfound purpose to get her baby back. She also all of a sudden started buying tons of stuff and sending it home with the baby after visits (when she shows up, which has been pretty spotty, but I’m guessing that’s about to change as well). This week, she bought a new carseat and sent it home. I am really beginning to hate foster care, and the people who always suggest it as an avenue to build a family.
On the domestic infant adoption front, we just ran out of profile books again, exactly 6 weeks after they were available to expectant mothers. I would like to think we’re REALLY popular, but I think that due to our experiences with foster care and our suddenly comfortable financial situation, we’re just available as a choice to many, many more expectant mothers than most other couples. Which is good for our overall chances I guess. I’m really curious about how quickly other couples go through books. I feel like this is going to get very expensive very quickly and we may end up empty-handed. I’m just not feeling positive about our chances to ever have a family.
I have also decided that if I can make it work, I want to try to get my Asherman’s fixed. Not because I want to get pregnant (but I wouldn’t be upset if it happened), but because I’m tired of feeling so horrible 3 days out of every cycle. It really sucks. I would happily trade more bleeding for less pain. The only issue is that the closest specialist is a 6-to-8-hour drive or 1.5-hour flight (plus the whole airport rigmarole plus car rental etc) away. So if I did that, it would require very careful planning, especially if we still have a foster baby at the time. I’m not sure what to do.